I would start a cheesecake bakery.  I make the best homemade cheesecakes.  I even make my own graham cracker crusts.

Today i selected to dj my show while totally nude and kneeling at my desk.  i chose this because i felt it was a true way to feel really submissive and i ached for that.  As my show started, B had me do a few things with ice.  The longer i was kneeling i felt like i was on my knees ready to serve Him fully.  It made me realize that my main purpose in life is to serve others and please them.  After my show i felt this huge sense of pride in my heart that i had done my assignment and done it well.  i'm amazed that doing this in honor of B created such a deep feeling of submission deep inside me.  i  can't explain it but i don't remember ever feeling more submissive than i did today.  The neat thing was even though i was here in my living room all alone, i felt like i was totally exposed.  i felt like everyone listening to my show had to know i was nude and kneeling.  In reality there were only 2 of us who knew.  Doing this assignment put a stirring deep in my heart.  As weird as it was doing it, it just felt right.  As i knelt at my desk, i could feel the deep sense that i was making Him very happy in what i was doing.  Ultimately that's what truly mattered most to me.... hearing Him say " you did a great job".  As a submissive i take great pride in those words.  Being naked and kneeling reminded me where i belong.  When the tears finally hit me it was when that the doubt was removed from my mind.  i am truly a submissive and i have a deep aching need to serve One and to know i've pleased Him.  

Hope

It had to hurt my body,
It had to leave scars on me,
It had to put , threw my heart a hole,
It had to affect my soul.

I had fear of the dark
When I'd lie in bed at night
I had fear of death,
That came while I was in bed
I had a fear to grow old
and loose my smile of gold ...

I was depressed and crying,
I had no one to confide in,
I couldn't keep it all inside,
and that is when good came into my life

I was frozen in the memories,
I was stuck with no one with me,
I wanted to break my wall and get guidance,
But I was standing in indifference.

Now a four letter word
Has brought me to grow older
It has made me to stand against the unknown
It has made me to stop feeling so alone.

That small word also made me believe,
That everything could eventually be at ease
That little word : is HOPE
Hope to be able to grow
Hope to believe in better days
Hope to believe in healing and living always.

Memories of the past,
Hashes of the bad,
Pleasures and the laugh,
and hope of a better and good life.